Matt Willis has candidly opened up about the extent of his drug addiction, revealing he would take 6 grams of cocaine every day.
The Busted icon, 39, is exploring his struggles with substance abuse in new BBC documentary Fighting Addiction, which also features his wife Emma Willis, 47.
The musician first became sober in 2008, the year he married Emma, but relapsed several times, including after they had their children: Isabelle, 13, Ace, 10 and Trixie, six.
During the hour-long feature, Matt reflects on his most recent relapse, which was five years ago, during a reunion tour with his band Busted, the noughties pop band behind hits like Year 3000.
He tells the programme-makers that during the after-party after one of their sold-out dates, he was offered a line of the class A drug, which he accepted because he believed his addiction issues stemmed from alcohol.
‘I was like, “Cocaine wasn’t a problem for me, alcohol was my downfall,” he explained.,
‘Within a month I was doing six grams, bang, bang, bang, bang, on my own every f**cking day and not coming home until 3am in the morning, pretending I was working on my album.
‘I wasn’t really writing I was making s**t music in the studio doing coke.
‘It was straight back to that shame cycle, the shame of relapse, the same of letting everyone down, the shame of using uncontrollably trying to stop and not being able to.’
Emma, struggling to hold back tears, explains she was ‘flabbergasted’ Matt had relapsed, adding: ‘I didn’t expect it. I think because he had been doing so well for such a long time.
‘It was the last thing I thought.’
Matt has previously spoken about feeling ‘ashamed’ about being ‘the mastermind at gaslighting Emma, making her think she was crazy.’
‘I’m so ashamed of that,’ he confessed to The Guardian. ‘And I never want her to feel like that again.’
Matt Willis: Fighting Addiction will air on BBC One and iPlayer on Wednesday, 17 May at 9pm.
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