Jesy Nelson managed to put on a brave face when Little Mix gave their first interview hours after they won The X Factor 2011.
The foursome sat on the Daybreak sofa opposite Kate Garraway and seemed taken aback by their sudden spot in the limelight.
"We'll chat to you properly because I know you haven't had an awful lot of sleep, so it'll give you a chance to put your feet up for a minute," Kate told the girls, who laughed politely in response.
Jesy, who was sitting in between Jade Thirwall and Leigh-Anne Pinnock, spoke for the whole band when she was asked what it was like to hear Dermot O'Leary announce them as the winners.
"When he read out Little Mix it was just insane, oh my god we're so happy," said Leigh-Anne.
"You thought Marcus might win though?" the presenter asked them.
"We did, but every week we prepared ourselves to go out. So we was just [preparing] ourselves for a second," Jesy laughed as she looked at the others for reassurance.
She kept her hands clasped on her lap and leaned forward slightly, masking her discomfort with being in front of the camera.
"Did it make a difference playing in Wembley Arena to 10,000 people?" the girls were asked.
"God, it was incredible – the atmosphere was amazing, the crowd, everything," gushed Jesy.
When asked if it felt weird to be performing in the historic venue, she added: "No, it kind of in a real way it felt like home because we was there for boot camp, we performed at Wembley for boot camp."
She also spoke up when they were asked about Simon, who was in America filming for his other TV show while the 2011 X Factor series was going on in the UK.
"We haven't met him yet, we've spoken to him on Skype," Jesy said.
"All the contestants spoke to him, that was quite a whie back now he was just giving us some advice. I can't believe [he was tweeting about wanting us to win], that was incredible.
"We haven't even met him but we can't wait to. Can't wait to."
But even when she should have felt most happy, Jesy was already being plagued by disgusting comments by trolls trying to body-shame her.
"From the minute I won X Factor, I wasn’t Jesy the barmaid, the happy confident girl that I used to be. I was the vulnerable nervous wreck the whole time," she revealed in her documentary, which airs tonight.
"For five years I was really suffering from depression and I didn't want to talk about it because I was like 1, I felt ashamed and 2, I thought if I keep talking about it I'm never going to get away from that and I didn't want to be known as the fat ugly one from Little Mix."
Jesy's mental health deteriorated in private until the point where she took an overdose in November 2013 – and was luckily saved by her boyfriend at the time.
"I just remember thinking, 'I just need this to go away, I'm going to end this'," she said in the documentary.
"I remember going to the kitchen and just took as many tablets as I could. Then I laid in bed for ages and kept thinking, 'Let it happen. Hurry up'."
She confessed to her boyfriend who called an ambulance, but Jesy's torment continued until she deleted her Twitter account in a bid to stop being constantly trolled.
*Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out airs tonight at 9pm on BBC1
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